Yesterday we had our first church league softball practice, it was so much fun! I’m not super great at the sport but I have a great time playing. This year we combined two churches because both churches were a little short on members. My point in telling you this is because when I first signed up to play I was really excited UNTIL I heard the name of one of the girls from the other church that was playing, Kristy! My very first thought was “I am NOT playing with her, I can NOT play with her, it’s impossible” but then I reconsidered because I decided I am not going to let her ruin this for me.
Let me give you some background on why I didn’t care for her AT ALL. Before I met my husband I was seeing this guy, Ryan, and she was his ex-fiance, and she was CRAZY, to say the least. She would call him and text him and ride by his house, call his sister to see what we were doing, started asking people about me, tried adding me on Facebook and borderline stalking me and was talking pretty badly about me to a lot of people. It was about a month after we broke up that she finally left me alone. Now I know this seems petty, no wait, it doesn’t seem petty, it is super petty that I let all this bother me like it did. And I realize that now.
So, now I find out that we are on the same softball team and I go to practice expecting the worst and praying it isn’t awful. When I arrive she is already there and it’s terribly awkward at first between us. Then she gets put on first and me on second and what do ya know we actually start speaking to each other, mainly softball talk but talking nonetheless. So at this point I’m thinking well maybe it won’t be too bad, maybe we can actually just be civil to one another. I can’t belive it.
After practice she comes up to me and starts a conversation, one that I don’t really have any interest in because it’s concerning our ex and his maybe baby mama drama, but it’s a start, I guess. Then I felt like the Lord impressed on me to ask her to our prayer meeting (Me & a couple of my friends get together and pray every Monday night) and I was thinking, no I’m not going to ask her, Lord I can’t ask her. But then, of course, I ask her and she accepts. And I’m thinking wow, Jesus, you are a pretty convincing guy.
So we get to my friend’s house and start prayer and I can tell she is a little uncomfortable. I don’t think that she has ever really been close to Jesus so I’m sure she was a little out of her comfort zone. A little ways into prayer I just really felt like we should all pray together and so we gather around and there sits the 5 of us on the floor holding hands and we begin to pray and it is just like the floor of heaven opens up and the Holy Spirit just floods the room we’re in. And we get a word from the Lord! It was amazing! Then when we were done praying she confessed that she has been going through a ton of rough stuff. She had been in a relationship with a girl for the past year and they had been living together.A couple weeks ago the girl broke things off with no explanation as to why and she had to move back in with her parents. Now her family is giving her a hard time and some have basically disowned her for being with a girl and she is just really hurt.
My heart broke for her but I KNOW that God ordained her to be there! I know she is hurting but I know that there is a reason that her and her girlfriend broke up and there is a reason she started going to church and ended up playing on our softball team and there is a reason that I invited her to go even though my flesh did not want her there. And that reason is that Jesus loves her, He loves her and wants her to know that He loves her and He wants whats best for her. He wants to fill that void that she has and give her peace and joy. It’s so amazing what God can orchestrate!
If there is anyone out there who does not know the love of God, I pray right now that He would just shower it on you! I am so thankful for Jesus and His unfailing, never-ending, incomprehensible love!
